Wednesday, December 19, 2012
A Good Friend.
Peer pressure can be such a b*tch sometimes... It can make you do things you never thought you'd do. Depending on who the person is, what he has, who he has, or how much he has. Most people probably don't realize it. But it bothers me that so many people can't just be themselves. If feels a lot better to be the one that follows himself instead of just following the bunch. But don't get me wrong. Following isn't always the worst thing. There's time when you just need to do what you need to do, or follow your beliefs such as attitude, religion, inspiration, whatever it may be. But you should NEVER do something because your scared or don't know how to say no, or want to be looked at as cool... I'm probably gonna get hate for saying this, but its never a bad thing to be the odd one out. I've been moving around schools a lot. And something I noticed lately is really surprising If you out thought into it. . I've went to schools where everyone's white, where everyone's black, where everyone's mixed and match but they all have in common is one thing... Okay, the most popular music now a days is pop, and rap. Am I wrong? But what I noticed is the slang language that's going around. Not using proper English, being rude and disrespectful, and only talkin about the same things... But the funny thing is, everyone's doing this, white, black, Chinese, Mexican, everyone. Even though I might get hate for this, I'm gonna say it. THERE IS MORE IMPORTANT THINGS THAN MONEY, PUSSY, AND WEED! And that's the truth. And by the way, their not just pussy either. There women. And they deserve respect. Just as everyone does. I also see people doing stuff that they don't even understand, throwing up gang symbols that would've got them killed in other places I've been. Doing careless and stupid things that could get them, and the people around them, friends, family, hurt, and maybe even killed. I've done a lot of things I regret, a lot of things I wish I could take back. But I can't. All I'm trying to say is, it doesn't hurt to be the different one. It doesn't hurt to be the good guy.. In the world we're in, we could really use a few good guys and girls. And girls, please stop going for jerks who are rude. Unless your into that kinda thing... If you are that's your choice and okay. Everyone deserves better though. (unless your raping people and killing people or your the slender man, doing both xD) I used to do some crazy things. I always had to be the tough guy. Until I met you... All I know I was getting thrown out of schools, doing very very bad things. Just ruining my life. I was in deep with the courts and been in the back of a cop car more than a few times. Too much info?? Yeah... I agree. I'm not trying to scare you or nothing but here's my story. I met my wife. My beautiful, amazing, stunning, unbelievable cool wife. When I first met her, I was 15 or 16. She was different than all the other girls I met, for starters, she made me laugh, made me smile. Which was really weird for a girl or anybody to make me do. I was always the funny guy aha. She was modest. Sweet. Lively. Beautiful. Always there and just overall. A good friend... We became friends after I tried hitting on her, which was nothing new for me. But I had this feeling at the pit of my stomach. A bad feeling. About her. I knew in my heart, I couldn't do this. I couldn't do what I tried to do with other girls. But I was sure that I wouldn't be able to get her if I wasn't an asshole... I was so wrong, and such an idiot. After a while, I wasn't even trying to be with her, I just wanted my best friend. Her obviously. She did NOT like the stuff that I did AT ALL. But still accepted me as a person. But one thing I always did, no matter where I was at. I had good grammar. That's one thing I didn't copy of everyone else. But back on with my story. Things were really hard for me, but I didn't show. But every step of the way she was always there for me. And that was amazing. Something I NEVER had before. We became best friends. Shared everything with each other and really were just happy all the time we spent together. Until she got a boyfriend. Somebody she had a crush on since forever. At first I thought that was okay. He SEEMED like a good guy. Like he could treat her how she deserves. A much better guy than I could ever be... But maybe he wasn't as good as I thought he was. But long story short. They broke up. And I realized how far away I felt from her. And that I knew I wanted her forever. I didn't want to spend the rest of my life without this girl I fell so hard for. I was deep in love but tried so hard to fight the feeling away, because I knew I wasn't the best guy for her, and she deserves the best. I could never be that... Until one day, it became too much. I couldn't hold it in anymore, I couldn't hold myself back. We were at a movie. We were play-fighting for this little fake ring just messing around. Until I tried pulling it too much and instead I pulled her. We were so close our lips were centimeters from touching. Unbelievably close. The rest of the sound in the room grew silent. Out of the 60 or so people in the room for the movie. Everything was gone. It was just me and her in an empty room, no noise except the breath coming from her mouth onto my mouth and nose. The longest 5 seconds of my life. Passing as if it were 5 minutes. Until she slightly drew away from me around 5 inches. Feeling as if it was 5 miles and she took my heart with her. As she said "I'm gonna go get a drink..." As she slowly turned around and left as she followed her feet with her eyes as she was walking down the stairs. I knew I had messed everything up. How could I have done something so stupid. Our friendship would definitely be awkward now right?... Right?. She returned after the most anticipated wait I've ever had to endure in my entire life. And I've had my fair share of waiting. We engaged into 5 minutes of pure, dead silence. Scared out of my mind, I tried to break the silence with an apology, but it just so happens she tried to do the same. As I looked into her eyes as she looked into mine, I've never wanted something more in my life. I looked away, not sure what I was gonna do. What was gonna happen. But I looked back. I looked into her eyes. Scared out of my mind. I cut off her sentence with a kiss. She looked at me like I was crazy. Not being able to comprehend what just happened. I've never felt so happy when she kissed me back. Long story short. By the end o the movie, my lips were a tiny bit sore. But I didn't mind. I felt so happy. So alive. I was in love with my best friend. We've had our ups and downs. But she stuck with me the whole way. Didn't back out an inch. Now I'm on my way to collage. She helped me through everything. Now I have my life back together. I'm on track and preparing for our life together. Our family. Ours. But yeah, I got a TINY bit off track. All I'm trying to say is, when we were just friends, I knew how amazing she was. And these guys came up to her, trying to hit on her, oh god. I was ready to throw some hands ahaha if you understand that expression. Anyways, she didn't like it when guys do that. She's not that kind of girl. And I knew she deserved more respect than that. But she asked me to get them to stop. Thankfully a fight didn't break out. They were pretty understanding. And they left. But after I cooled myself down I realized, I was the one doing that back when I was. Back before her. They had no idea who she was. To them, she was just another girl. Just like the rest of them. Just like I saw them. But she was such an amazing person they never knew. Never will know. They say everyone is the same. But not everyone is everyone. I'm not everyone. She's not everyone. YOU ARE NOT EVERYONE. After that one time with those other guys trying to hit on my best girl friend. I never disrespected another girl again. My that I would have to. We grew to be happy and now are happier than ever. So I guess the moral of this story is you don't have to follow everyone else to be cool. Also you don't know who people are until you actually give them a chance. People don't deserve to be hurt. Cuz after all, we are just people. SORRY FOR GETTING OFF TRACK SO MUCH. Goodnight fellow bloggers.